Looking at the Watercolor

A few months ago I made a note on my phone.  A musing that hit me as I lay falling asleep, something I wanted to blog about later but never did.

A water color painting.  The edges are messy.

Landscape by J. M. W. Turner in 1802

The picture is not clearly defined.

It's faded and hard to see.

You can get lost looking at that painting trying to see the image clearly.

I felt like that water color painting.  I was lost in questions... who am I?  What am I?

I didn't know the answers and I felt like I needed to.

I've been talking with a professional and feeling great.

I'm realizing that somewhere in that watercolor I lie waiting.  Waiting to be discovered, but I'm already there.  I just need to acknowledge it.  See it.  Own it.

Because I am:

A daughter and a guardian.

                                                                                A teacher and a student.

A collector.

                                            A music lover.

   A friend.

                                                                         A blogger.

A bookworm.

A Christian.

A West Wing and Doctor Who fan.

I am not defined by expectations of others.

                   

I am not just my choices, they do not make or break me.

I am discovering more about myself everyday and learning to appreciate myself.

                   

I am more.  Not less.

Remember many things in life can wait,

but learning more about yourself,

appreciating and respecting yourself,

and The Sunset Won't.

How would you describe yourself?  What words would you use?