H2IK

Life is full of H2IK moments.  As a teacher I have had more than my fair share.   H2IK originates from a short lived TV show called Defying Gravity.  The term can be used to appear as if you are giving a technical explanation for something when in fact you don't know.  If someone who is familiar with the term hears it, it can be considered a request to help explain without embarrassing the original speaker (explanation found on Urban Dictionary).


So what is H2IK?  It means "Hell if I know."  We all have these moments, right?  Whether its when I'm teaching and a student wants to know exactly how many soldiers died on D+3, or who the first person was to shoot a bullet during the Spanish-American War.  While I love their curiosity, H2IK.  I'm not a walking encyclopedia.  


Maybe it's when someone asks you what your plans are now that you are done with college.  H2IK.  I can make all the plans that I want, it doesn't mean they are going to happen.  I planned on getting a job right out of college, didn't happen.  I planned on being in a serious relationship by now, didn't happen.  Am I complaining?  No.  Because someday it's going to happen.  And if it doesn't that I just have to believe it wasn't meant to be.  Because there are plenty of things I DO know.


I know that my family loves me even when we drive each other crazy.  I know that I made my parents proud by graduating college.  I know that God has plans for my brother despite his disabilities.  I know that the experiences I had as a babysitter and as a nanny helped me to save a baby's life.  I know that while I may not have many friends, I have friends that count.  I know that I am not the smartest, funniest, prettiest girl in the world.  But I'm not supposed to be.  I know that I am who God made me to be.  I know that I may try to be someone I'm not, but I don't need to.  I know that who I am is enough.  I know that the desires of my heart will be fulfilled in God's time (and when I don't know it, I have to believe it).


I know that sometimes its okay to say H2IK.  Because sometimes, we can't know it all.